04-09-08

Job 23:10-12
But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold. My feet have closely followed his steps; I have kept to his way without turning aside. I have not departed from the commands of his lips; I have treasured the words of his mouth more than my daily bread.

The above verses, finds a certain meaning for me now, I have known these verses for some time now, and the meanings of them haven't really changed in my view, but they take on such profound meaning now in my life, that I have made them my verses for my soul.

Our God is an awesome God, He tests us in ways that at times seem odd or maybe even unjust at times. I believe the unjust times are when we are not paying attention to His ways or Him at all. We have all been there, I myself, have been there many times over and over again. I also believe that the above verses hold true to the title of this blog. I am trying to see through His eyes, all throughout my life in every aspect of it, from work to home, to relationships, to people I don't even know. It is hard my friends. I have spoken in my past posts, of where I am in life physically. I have been down about my pain, and my life in this area. My next procedure is this coming Monday, and I am praying it comes through like gold. I pray for this to end. I am back at work again, and am enjoying what I do, I like the people I work with, and the people that come in to seek my help and advice. Everyday day though I come home, and just ache, and sting, and find myself wishing I could just pass out and wake up all healed.

The other day, I was reeling in pain. (for a little insight, I have good days and bad days,)
I took my pain pills, and started down a road of discouragement. But unlike before, I only got so far, stopped what I was doing, thought, prayed and asked for help. Funny thing though, my pain didn't go away, but my attitude changed, things around me blossomed in front of me and changed my mines direction. For example my two wonderful boys, each and a different time came and without prompting or asking in anyway, came up to me hugged me, kissed my cheek, and said, "I love you daddy". If that doesn't help, I don't know what would.

I next sat down and opened my bible, and with a book mark I already had in there the book opened right to the above verses. I spoke of this to a small group my wife and I are starting to attend through our church. I spoke of how we want to see God. Of how we would like to see the cloud writing in the sky that says,"its OK mike, I'm here, I've got it,.....God". How we want to get a phone call or email from God reassuring us, but we don't. I can't see Him, but I know He's there. O' that I could know where He is, but I don't. How we don't understand Him but we trust Him. This is all tied together in His plan, it is unfolding as we speak, we must understand that God is unique, He knows the way that I take, He understands, He is all knowing and all powerful, there is nothing He can't take, there is nothing He can't do or undo. I love our God, I love that I don't know or understand, it actually takes some of the pressure off, I don't know and I don't have to know.

My friends, He has opened my eyes and is in control. I still hurt, I still have my pain and am tired from lack of sleep, but He is there. I asked for my pain to go away, it didn't but something better happened, my boys love me, I came closer to my Lord. Through all of this, I guess I'm trying to say, that my faith is strong, my back is weak, but my faith is strong, there is no breaking it, in all things, rejoice to the Lord, give Him your thanksgiving, and your praise, for He alone deserves it, and is worthy of it.

My friends, never give up. He will never give up on you, for who knows you better, than He.

Father I give you this day, I give you my life, for it is truly all that I have to give. Forgive my Father for the doubts I've had, for the lack of faith in my life before, Thank you Lord for Your grace, Your love, and Your word, I lift up my family and all of those that read this, I pray for Your blessing to poor out onto them, Lord you are in control, and the one and only. thank you Father, I give you this day, in the name of Your son, Jesus Christ I pray,
amen