04-01-08

It is Tuesday morning, and it feels like a Monday, I am not sure where the day will end, I know for sure that there is work ahead of me today, there are my kids, loud and normal. My wife is in my day today, the most real and constant thing in my life, (outside of God and the boys). Man she is a beautiful chick, i believe that one reason Christ put her in my life, is to lift up days like today, by just thinking of her. Now not that this is a bad day, or nothing but wrong has happened, but its just one of those days that start out hectic and rushed, and if you don't stop and take a breath it could get away from you.
I have a good attitude, and am generally in a good mood. It has been harder in the most recent months, maybe a little bit more history on me for those of us just catching up with me. I am going on a years anniversary of back surgery. Before I had a pinched nerve from a herniated disc. Pain pills and a cane lead to a nickname of "House" from friends and at one time from my family. Yes my attitude then was not normal, more or less, kind of ugly. Through therapy, and healing, scar tissue developed around my nerve, and is still debilitating me. I have chronic pain, and discomfort. Also during the last several months there has been a unforeseen change in jobs, and family problems. Nothing with wife and kids, but anyone who is married knows that family doesn't stop at your front door, it goes to her side as well as yours.
When it rains it pours; I think we have all experienced that example some time in our lives. I know for sure that nothing happens that hasn't passed through Gods fingers first. Now there are those that will point out that if that is true, then how come so much evil happens in life......Well, everyone has free will. Sin is everywhere, only one was born into this world free of sin,(Christ Jesus), there is no sinless person on this earth. Also, and this is my favorite reason, Isaiah 55:8, For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord.
How awesome is that! Things happen to us and those around us, for reason we cannot explain, but God allows everything for a reason, it has taken me along while, and am I still learning, but I now love coming to the conclusion of, "I don't know". Imagine what this world would be like if more people said, "I don't know", imagine political figures, lawyers, doctors, teachers, parents, and children, sometime in there travels say, "I don't know". Sometimes medicine, can't explain everything, sometimes a senator or president can't do anything about the problems today. Yes even teachers should say, "I don't know". Continue to learn is really a beautiful thing.
It really hit me this past winter; when everything was coming at Lorna and myself it became so clear; stop turning from God, start over with Him again. God has made it clear that there is never a wrong time to turn back to Him, to start walking in His footsteps.
I love our Lord, He gives such great grace, true unfiltered grace, I praise Him for His grace, His love, His complete awesome wonder. We turned ourselves back to Him, and He showed His love.
The stability of income is now back in our lives, I have spent time with Christ and have prayed and prayed about the family problems. I have forgiven being wronged and have moved on, in my heart and mind, (now I am praying and working with my wife on her end of the situation), as far as the back problems, I am still getting treatments but my outlook and attitude is positive, and optimistic. I feel that this blog is another way God is working through me and my life. I didn't sleep well last night, and I think it was cause of this site. I feel good about it, and I believe it is honoring, and for His will and not mine. Maybe someone will read this and question in their lives will be answered, or someone will something my way, or maybe it's just a good way to give testimonials, I don't know, but I do know, that Christ is in control.

prayer:
Father, thank you for your love, your grace, Lord pour your love and grace upon my family, and those who read these words, and all around us. Without you we would really be lost, but with Your grace you have saved us, and blessed us. We give you this day, and all that's in it.
In the name of your son, Jesus Christ we pray,
amen